I sit here today with so many tasks to accomplish; feeling rushed and knowing there is not enough time in my day to tackle all my goals.
I keep asking myself, "Why?".
Why is it so important to take my child to the doctor, get the house cleaned, the shopping complete, do laundry, change sheets, chauffeur kids to and from school, and meet with friends all in one day? (Let me put a side note that this is my “day off”.)
Why is it I feel so much better if I accomplish all of these tasks?
Why do I feel anxiety if I see the clock running out before I can check each item off for the day?
It seems completely irrational to me that my emotional stability is tied to completing tasks, however, here I am knocking out a blog and wondering if I will still have time to vacuum before I pick up the kids…because I will feel better.
Can anyone relate? Surely I am not alone.
I know this is not healthy, but we all have our own hang ups.
So here is my why answer.
I am placing my self-worth in accomplishments. I feel like I need a clean home, well stocked kitchen, and time to pretend I have it all together with friends so that I can feel in control.
Crazy that I do this because I KNOW I am not in control.
So lesson learned today is that even though we sometimes know the truth, we do not always apply this knowledge in our actions.
Take a look at what you have going on.
Is it reasonable? Is it healthy?
Ask yourself what you know to be true and see if your walk is aligned.
Off to clean! (Agh!)
Ditto on this..Ditto.
ReplyDeleteI think every mom feels this way at times....so glad to read your blog- miss seeing you and praying for all the best for you and your family!!! Hope work is getting better each day too.....
ReplyDeleteI can SO relate Stacy! Fortunately, time and lots of face time with the Lord has helped to heal this part of my life. One of my favorite comments from "Lies Women Believe and the Truth that sets them free" by Nancy Leigh DeMoss calls us out on this lie we believe "that we don't have enough time to do all the things we need to do" She points out that Jesus had all the time HE needed to accomplish the redemption of man in his life time. He accomplished this because He ONLY did what His Father in Heaven called Him to do!! That was the comment that really rocked my world! My prayer now is "Lord help me to ONLY do what MY FATHER in Heaven calls me to do" and not what I "think" I should be doing, or what the world, my family, the church, my friends... say I should be doing. With that said, it is MUCH easier "said" than done! Father, I pray that you would help us all to focus on YOU and only the tasks that YOU have for us each day and give us the strength and the courage to let go of everything else! In Jesus name, AMEN!
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